I don’t expect a lot from you. Actually, I guess I do. I expect you to make me better. Well, I expect me to help myself get better, with the aid of some doctors and things. But really, I’m hoping I won’t have to go for your big sis 2019 too. That would kinda be a bummer.
I’m hoping I can find peace.
I’m hoping I can find a direction.
I’m hoping I can feel all the things I want to feel: serene, authentic, creative, present, radiant, nourished.
I’m hoping I can make all the things I want to make: cosplay, paper art, knitted things, a beautiful garden, the best bullet journal, and ten more novels. (I’m aiming high.)
I’m hoping I can get all the habits started I want to: cook every day, meditate every day, write every day, eat and exercise in a way that fits my body and health situation.
I’m hoping I can find a tribe of people to support me, to love me, to accept me, to push and scold me when I need it.
I’m hoping I can play D&D every week.
I’m hoping I can read all the books I want now that I have a library at hand again (praise the LORD Y’ALL).
I’m hoping I can write more poetry. Poetry is the bomb.
I’m hoping I can find a career that suits me, or a good-enough job to help me live a life I love.
I’m hoping for…hope.
I’m hoping 2018 will be a year of hope realized, of desires fulfilled, of feelings expressed, of love and other emotions felt and allowed.
Dear 2018, you will be awesome. Because 2017, while it had a lot of lows, had a lot of highs too, and I know they are in every day, every moment. That each second is all eternity, is a wavelength of dips and spikes and we can ride the crests or flounder in the shallows and I know where I want to be.
I want to be here, where I am. In who I am.
Dear 2018, I love you already.
And Dear 2017, good-bye. You taught me some of the best lessons I’ve had in my life so far. And I did a lot, too.
- Went to Middle-Earth (a huge bucket list item)
- Wrote 50,000 words for NaNo
- Became a better, more confident teacher
- Attended two very important weddings
- Launched this blog
- Read 100 books
- Reconnected with an old, dear friend
- Got clear on how I want to feel
- Had a health crisis that invigorated me to start getting better
Thanks for those, friend. It was great, it was tough, and it’s time to move on.
Happy New Year!